JOURNAL 
3/3/26 
D&D
I've been thinking about starting a D&D club at my school ... my old school had one, but my new school doesn't, and I've been too busy with rehearsals and concerts to really get a stable group going. One of my friends started a dance club, though, so I am INSPIRED
I really want to play D&D more ... I'm trying to start one online with friends from my old school, aka people I've played with, but we're waiting for everyone to figure out a schedule + me planning out a new campaign. It's a lot harder since two of them moved to the US, so our timezones are far apart now. For irl, a few of my friends from drama expressed interest in learning how to play, so I might have some people!!!
Ummm other than that there's nothing else I wanna talk about really. I still need to finish that paper. Eeeeeeeeekkkk
Also I'm going to make a new page for vents and darker topic journals and such. I've been very conflicted about venting online but um. I wanna :P
PLAYING : GTA V
3/3/26 band and other activities
Band class was prettyyyy bad today... Everyone was sharp, including me, so I had to take out my tuning slide a bunch. Guess what that did. Not only did it mess up my embouchure the entire time, THE TUNING SLIDE FELL OUT IN THE MIDDLE OF A SONG. THE SOUND IT MADE DUDE. 😭😭😭
NEway, my stomach hurts sooo bad and I dunno why. I'm starting a new D&D campaign with some friends, except it's online, which is new for all of us... I think it will go well, though!! It's going to be themed after the Wooden Leg trilogy by Alestorm. Iykyk. Winks
I like making my campaigns based on other things. My very first one was based on my main oc story, and I had one based on Netflix Castlevania but changed my mind since one of my players started watching it.
ALSO, I'm kind of procrastinating on my ELA work right now... I need to write a 2,000 word paper, but I only have 700 words and it's due next week...!!! I find it amazing how I struggle to hit 1,000 words when writing for school, but can effortlessly write a 5,000 word fanfiction in one sitting at 2am. If only that skill translated to school. 💔💔
ALSOOOO. I got asked THE question. I wore my A Perfect Circle shirt to school and a teacher asked me to name ONE song. And then another teacher asked me if I liked Maynard. I said I like TOOL the most and I could see the FEAR in his eyes... jk... the way I said it probably made me look like the stereotypical TOOL fan who goes on a huge rant about the band. Which I totally would have if he didn't walk away, so it is justified. 💜
PLAYING : POSTAL (Getting Bulletstorm!!)
18/2/26 angry rant
I am... very angry.... I'm currently failing my AP ELA class because I didn't check Google Classroom over my Drama competiton week and just so happened to miss 1 assignment and 2 videos that I had to watch. Which is so funny!!! Because I would have had ZERO time to watch them anyway. I had a fucking hour of free time a day. I had no wifi. I was getting to the hotel at 7-8pm every day, just to shower and be EXHAUSTED because I had an entire WEEK of TWELVE HOUR DAYS!! And I couldn't stay up or else I'd be tired the next day, which is NOT GOOD for acting!!!!!! And I am NOT used to this kind of work. I don't have a job and this is my first club that has taken more time than an hour once a week.
I don't want to say anything bad about this teacher because he isn't bad. He's a great guy. He is funny. I like his class. But holy shit. He completely ignored all of my "excuses". Yay how I love failing my class!
I punched my bedframe and blasted TOOL in my headphones so now I'm less mad. But still pissed off. And I am NOT motivated to do these assignments at all. Yayyyyy.
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7/2/26 
travel and identity anxiety
as i'm writing this, i am NOT packing up for my trip to Korea tomorrow. I really need to do that, but AFTER this! I'm pretty nervous for it. One, I'm going to a whole other country without any family. I do not go places without my parents, not even the store, so I am very scared. Two, our actual teacher and director can't go because of a family emergency. I don't know the teacher in place of him, and I'm pretty anxious about me and the others not being used to this teacher and forgetting our lines or the critic he (our director) gave us. Three... in the month that we've had to practice our play, I have not been on my period. Right before we leave for the competiton, I am on my period. I really hope it won't impact my acting... luckily, it's a drama, so if I'm pissed off, it'll work well. I also have no idea how well I'll do with a hundred kids watching. Sometimes, a senior comes in to watch us practice for like, 20 minutes, but when he does, I feel really anxious and shaky. BUT, it also motivated me to do better...
I have also been thinking about myself lately. I'm 16, but I've realized a huge part of who I am is my sexuality. You can see the issue, right? I don't mean to express it so much, but I constantly catch myself talking about sex, sexual habits, sexual interests, every possible thing related to sexuality. I made a new sona who fits me perfectly, but he is visibly inspired by BDSM culture, and I'm 16, so I can't post him or speak about his story (which is similar to mine)! It feels as if I'm constantly hiding major parts of me, because sexuality IS a major part of me. I'm not trying to play the victim or anything, by the way. I understand that being underage and talking about sex is dangerous, especially on sites with lots of adults--- but damn, I hate it a lot! I wish I was 18 just so that I could express myself freely, without having to lose all my responsible friends ...... :/
(Also, fun fact. Wikipedia says the BDSM fair is on my birthday LOL)
I've been struggling with this for years, too. Ever since I was 10, I'd say. I've always been very sexually open online when I didn't care about who saw it... which ended up in some not great things happening. I now care, but still want to express myself!!! Even now, I want to start spilling all the deepest parts of my identity. But I can't, because that would be WEIRD. I have literally lost close friendships over this, my hypersexuality. I've been too open about it when I should have shut up. I've made too many dirty jokes that spill from me before I can think. Hell, I even snuck "top", "versatile", and "paraphile" into my about me page. (don't fret about the paraphile part!) It's an actual issue that I don't know how to fix. I kinda wanna make a reddit post asking for help about this lol. just for more input.
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PLAYING : GTA V
2/1/26 new year, new figures
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYNYAN!!!
as I'm writing this, it finally snowed and it's STICKING!! I am very excited. ＜（＾－＾）＞I haven't seen snow in like, 5 years!
neway, I went to Hiroshima on new years day and got MORE FIGURES... I am VERY happy with my finds, especially with their low prices. (all pictures from MFC since I'm too lazy to get up and get good pictures ;w;) I got ~~~
Rabbit Hole Miku Nendo!! (when I tell you the GASP i GASPED when i saw her, and only for 7000 yen!!)
Furude Hanyuu Bicute Bunny!!
Vanilla Noodle Stopper!!
I also got a Takato Yamamoto art book (Vampire's Box)!! It's super gorgeous and smells like off brand crayons from Cracker Barrel. Which is really good. :3
Oh, and Christmas!! I got binders and boxers and candy and a big pillow. It's cozy!!
I was gonna talk about more stuff, but I kinda forgot and don't wanna go on some huge philosophical rant in my neocities blog. Might do that later. Have a good day!!!
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PLAYING : Postal 2 (grinding achievements)
10/11/25 halloween, puppies, outfit, food
hey. >;) happy late halloween ummm LIFE SPAM GO
I was Dr.Rockzo for Halloween .... of course .
i babysat this super cute puppy for the weekend!!!! her name is lily
and i finally made an accessorized outfit i like ... usually i just wear a band shirt and cargo pants but are u truly a boy if u don't dress up every once in a while .....:3 (my mom's mirror is very dirty excuse the quality)
oh yea i wore the outfit to go check out the daiso store near me and i bought a LOT of snacks. plus some eyeliner to experiment with . and then i went to sushiro ^_^
it was good other than the fact that my 1 year old sister flung a french fry over the conveyor belt and hit a man's head 💔 anyways ..... everyone ignore how much i'm struggling with getting certain pages to look good (cough song lyrics page)
also i finally started listening to more seether songs and i am a bit obsessed ^_^' i only listened to fine again for a long time. but now. 69 tea is my fav. and driven under. all of disclaimer ii
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PLAYING : Cyberpunk 2077
18/10/25 updates and doubts
hellos .. (O_O) 11k views and 8 followers now wowee. not a lot, but is a lot considering there's like. not really anything interesting on my site imo LOL
i think i forget how nice people are here because i keep thinking to myself "who is interested in this???" and i have to remind myself i started this site for funsies for myself
neway i'm working on combining my story website ww/ this one and i've been writing my comic!!!! i'm still figuring out how i want it to look but hopefully i'll make the first few pages soon...... yuay
ive been playing cyberpunk 2077 a LOT too ..,, johnny kerry v and kurt hansen are like. my current muses. writing wisee
not much else to say...... im procrastinating on ap homework rn writing this so wish me luck
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5/7/25 doing things here again
Hello my 4 followers that may or may not be reading this, along with any visitors. :3
I kind of forgot about this site for a minute, mostly because I couldn't figure out how divs worked and how to move them... YES most of the site is tables right now but I'm working on it !!! Okay!!!!
I'm actually pretty proud of how this site looks, especially because I had NO experience in HTML / CSS before making it. Thank you W3schools I owe you everything.
Neway. Today I went to a festival and it was pretty fun-- I learned about a new artist named "Chameleon Lime Whoopiepie" and they're super cool. There was also a cover band that played before them and one of their singers gave my friend the microphone to sing a Paramore song! I ALSO got to watch fireworks!!
My life isn't that interesting other than that... I rot in bed and play itch.io games all day or draw .....that's all ;D
LISTENING TO : TOOL
PLAYING : Vampire Survivors
12/1/25 title
i started playing spiritfarer a while ago and im actually addicted its not funny. heart broken emoji. i played for arounddd 6 hours today i cant stop..!!!!!! i think gustav is my fav. then astrid. then,, summer.
im also dreading next week coz i have tests.....i hate
-r
29/12/24 rant about the ending of The Mist
ive been meaning to rant about The Mist's ending bc i really dont think its that bad (in world) so SPOILERS
if i were one of the survivors at the end i would rather get shot like how they did! like yes, they couldve been rescued, but an entire PORTAL was opened to a WHOLE OTHER WORLD. unless they closed it immediately (which i doubt) there would be a LOT of creatures, too many for the military to take out in a couple of days. not to mention everyone's families are probably DEAD, and theyd have to live with the trauma of what happened. and the city whatever is def not going to heal very quick after all that.....this all rly depends on how big the whole disaster is, i dont remember that much ummmmmmm ye
28/12/24 botanical garden lights
haii. :3 woke up at 5pm today..,, then had to leave at 6pm to go to see the botanical garden lights!!! super cool
dont have a lot to say,,,i didnt do anything else,,,,,
27/12/24 first entry ! figures !
yayay first blog thing. :3 today i went to manga soukou to spend some of the $100!!! i got for christmas!!! i bought 4 figures (tho was HEAVILY tempted to get 3 idolmaster?? & many way-too-expensive sonico figs..) :P
hatsune miku, sweet sweets tropical juice ver for ¥1800
oshino shinobu, exq figure for ¥2000
ononoki yotsugi, exq figure for ¥1800
kaname madoka, serenus couture for ¥2000
i'm rlly happy with them but im running out of space T_T i have more shelves, but i havent put them up yet ... i hopefully will soon lol. for christmas, i also got the launch figure i bought beforehand!
she was only $25...probably only so cheap because its the yellow version. i remember seeing the blue version and it was probably like $50+... i really want it but i'm fine with the version i have too, cuz i love launch :3 and either way, these figures are HUGE for prizes!!! and i got it for only $25 ouuhh..!!!!
other stuff i got was new doc martens, an alestorm shirt, horror movie sweatpants & slippers, mario party, a new speaker & headphones, a shit ton of candy, sanrio playing cards, and ANOTHER $100 on my steam account!! (tho the other money was from my uncle!!)
on another note, i'm rlly proud of this website so far...i restarted it like, yesterday to try and make my own css and i think it worked out alright!! w3schools is a blessing i swear
hmmmmm i also started playing balatro and im addicted.....it kinda feels like a poker version of vampire survivors/cotl and i luv it :P ok ima stop yapping